Bring Him Home Page 13

  As Claire unlocked the padlock on the boat shed, a white ute pulled up and a middle-aged man climbed out of the cab with a cheery greeting. “Made better time than I thought,” he said as Claire introduced him as John, the canopy guy. Shaking his hand, Nate noted that John was freshly shaven, with recently combed hair and a powerful aura of Old Spice.

  “Nate’s an old friend visiting from the States,” Claire said, and the slight crease between John’s eyebrows relaxed.

  The handshake became more enthusiastic. “Good to meet you.”

  Releasing Nate’s hand, he turned to Claire. “I know how important this is to you, so I thought I’d come out first thing and get things moving.”

  “That’s so kind,” Claire said. “I was under the impression you’d got all the measurements last visit.”

  Nate hid a smile.

  “Always good to recheck them.” John’s neck reddened slightly and he avoided Nate’s gaze. “Wooden boats aren’t symmetrical, maybe there’s been some movement.”

  Nate put him out of his misery. “Sounds sensible to me,” he said. “I’ll leave you to it.”

  He took his time selecting tools, chuckling silently as John set about trying to impress an oblivious Claire. Doubtless some parts of his job required skill, but his implication that taking simple measurements demanded surgical precision and crack-shot reflexes cracked Nate up. If this guy was an example of available men, poor Claire would find slim pickings. Taking the cover off the engine bay, Nate climbed into the cavity and started whistling as he disconnected the fuel line.

  Claire appeared after John left, carrying a notebook and pen. “I hope you haven’t got too far. I wanted to watch how you did it.”

  He was disconnecting the engine’s fuel, cooling and electrical systems for pick-up later that morning. “I’m just about to do the transmission.” He moved over to give her room in the confined space. “You’ve got quite the admirer in John.”

  She smiled. “He’s so awkwardly sweet, it’s very endearing.”

  The wrench slipped. Nate cursed and then apologized as he picked it up. “He’s not someone you’d consider going out with, though…. Is he?”

  “Poor John lost his wife eighteen months ago…. It took a lot of courage to ask me for coffee.” Her shoulder bumped his as she moved closer for a better view. Unlike John’s cologne, her perfume was a mere hint of the sensual Orient, an unsettling base note amongst the paint fumes and engine grease. “I made it clear it’s a support-group kind of thing, not a date.”

  Nate turned his head, found her face very close and sat back on his haunches. “Claire, some guys will play on sympathy to get what they want. Sure, John seems harmless, but you’re isolated out here. Be careful.”

  She laughed, and in that confined space her breath was minty-sweet. “I’m thirty-four, Nate, not sixteen. Steve was away half our married life and I’ve been widowed for over a year and a half. I don’t need advice on looking out for myself.”

  “Of course not,” he agreed, making a mental note to check the bach’s security and do a security check on John.

  He bent to his task. They’d been working closely for days, but suddenly she was in his space. Her hair fell across his forearm as he disconnected the electrical system, a tickling touch of silk. “Put your hair up,” he said brusquely. “It’ll get caught in the electrics.”

  She gave him a puzzled look. “You’ve disconnected everything.”

  “Safe practice.”

  “Fine.” She reached across him to the toolbox where a pink scrunchie sat amongst the spanners, screwdrivers and pliers, and the side of her breast pressed briefly against his arm.

  Nate gritted his teeth. It was that stupid conversation last night that was making him self-conscious. It forced him to see her not as Steve’s widow, but as a woman. He didn’t like it.

  He suffered her proximity another five minutes before he sat back. “You’re kinda blocking the light.”

  “I’m in your way, aren’t I?”

  “A little.”

  “Then I’ll go start on the hull’s second coat.”

  “Great idea.”

  He could breathe again when she’d gone. Except he still found himself watching her over the course of the morning—the way she lifted her arms to tighten her ponytail, the sweet roundness of her bottom as she bent to dip her brush in the paint can, how the coveralls tightened over her curves as she stretched to apply paint to the upper hull.

  She caught him staring and raised a brow. “What?”

  “Nothing.”

  It was a relief when the marine mechanics arrived to pull the engine and take it away for reconditioning. They were young guys in their twenties with cheeky grins and eyes for a pretty woman. Their appreciative gazes followed Claire, and when they used a portable gantry to lift the engine from its bay into the back of their specialized ute, they flexed their biceps in their muscle shirts, showing off for her.

  Their flirting was harmless and in good fun and his irritation at their macho posturing made Nate feel like a grumpy old man. What the hell was wrong with him this morning? On the other hand, Claire wore a wedding ring. They should show some respect for the institution. Some guys might read too much into her open, friendly smile. And that habit she had of twirling a loose strand of hair around her finger could easily be interpreted as a come-on.

  Nate stood back as she signed all the paperwork, arms folded and a frown on his face. Hell, for all she knew, these idiots could be gang members. But then, she’d always been too trusting, picking up strays throughout her married life, himself being a case in point.

  “So, any chance of some work now,” he said when they’d left.

  Claire raised a brow. “Excuse me?”

  “I’m trying to do as much as I can before I leave,” he said impatiently.

  Narrowed blue eyes assessed his mood. “Oh, don’t you worry about that,” Claire said sweetly. “I can easily organize a replacement.”

  Chapter Thirteen

  Every time Claire turned around, Nate seemed to be scowling at her.

  Dipping her brush into the can of paint sitting on the stepladder beside her, she applied it to the hull. By unspoken agreement they’d moved to opposite ends to paint, but eventually they’d have to meet in the middle. Hopefully, by then he’d have found some perspective.

  She’d woken this morning determined to think of him as a friend only, and his disapproval had made it easy. It didn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out he was uncomfortable with the idea of her dating. And that annoyed the hell out of her.

  She’d had to rebuild her life one day at a time. And she’d done it. Stepping out alone had been terrifying; at times it was still terrifying.

  The acrid paint fumes collected in her throat. Briefly she left her station to open the second roller door.

  When she’d noticed his smirk at John’s flimsy attempts to impress her she’d been annoyed enough to say yes to the tradesman’s invitation. John was a nice man, trying his best to move forward after his wife’s death. He needed encouragement, though she’d emphasized that having coffee was a friendly gesture only.

  Obviously, Nate required a reminder that it was her decision when she resumed a love life. And that was a lesson Claire was more than happy to deliver.

  The breeze created by the through draft lifted the corner of a drop sheet.

  “Careful,” Nate warned, but it had already flapped across the hull, leaving a streak in Claire’s new paintwork.

  “Damn it!” She pinned the sheet with a paint can and glared at Nate, who had the sense to keep his mouth shut.

  When the young mechanics had started flirting with her, she’d flirted back, assuaging the small core of hurt left by Nate’s dispassionate scan last night. His disapproving face had only made it more fun. Recalling it cheered her up. As she feathered out the streak, she picked up the tune Nate had been whistling earlier.

  On the last chorus he joined in. “I’ve been a jerk,” he sa
id.

  “Yes, you have.” Claire swept the brush across a new section, leaving a bright swath of cobalt on the gray undercoat. “It felt like I was ripped in half when Steve died,” she said. “If it wasn’t for Lewis and Ellie needing me, I would have lain down on my bed and never got up. It’s taken a long time to get to the point where my life feels like it’s mine again. Where I’m excited about the future.”

  She bent to refill her brush then covered the patches the first stroke had missed. “Maybe I’m not quite at the point of dating again, but I want to approach the process with an open mind.” She glanced sideways at Nate. “I don’t need you making it harder.”

  “Fair comment,” he said in a low voice. “Just…be careful.”

  “I will.”

  They resumed painting, but Nate was still restless. She lowered her brush. “What!” Swear to God, one more crack—

  “I’m sorry I couldn’t be here for you after Steve died.”

  It was the last thing she’d expected. Claire took a few seconds to reply. “That’s okay,” she said. “It wasn’t something you could make better.”

  Shaken, she wiped a spot of paint off her forearm with a solvent-soaked rag. Grief was a personal journey and everyone’s road to recovery was different. She was further along that road than Nate—and she was starting to understand why.

  He was a protector. Even in his new persona he hadn’t given up looking after people, albeit a spoiled rock star. He did volunteer security for a women’s shelter. Safeguarding people was a primal need for him. That’s why he took Steve’s and Lee’s deaths so personally.

  Realizing she was staring at him, she scrubbed at another paint splatter on her wrist.

  Nate was punishing himself with exile because he hadn’t saved Lee in the ambush. But the odds of Nate’s finding him while an attack raged—and with a critically wounded Ross to save—were tiny. No one knew whether Lee survived the initial blast that threw him clear of the vehicle. Claire prayed not. Believing he’d been conscious, dying when the rebels strapped him with explosives was too terrible to contemplate.

  She dropped the rag and moved her stepladder along to the next section of unpainted hull. Did Nate feel guilty because he’d survived and Steve—the family man—had died? It would explain why he didn’t want to see Lewis. In hindsight, telling Nate about her son’s troubles hadn’t helped. But not all Lewis’s delinquency could be attributed to being fatherless. Some of it came down to being a stroppy teenager.

  Nate needed to see that.

  And Ross was no longer the bitter disabled soldier Nate still believed him to be. He needed to see that, too. It wasn’t enough to tell him.

  “I need some fresh air,” Claire said abruptly, putting down her brush.

  His gaze searched her face. “You okay?”

  “I will be.”

  As always her mind settled as she took in the sweep of water narrowing as it wended its way out of sight into the bush-clad hills. Nate hadn’t found it easy seeing Ellie again, but it had been good for him, good for Steve’s mother. An old man fishing from the footbridge lifted his hand in a wave. Claire waved back. In this peaceful place, bound by tides, she could always see the big picture.

  It was the big picture that helped her reach for her cell.

  * * *

  By late afternoon the following day they’d coated one side of the hull with the glossy blue paint and were nearly finished the second. It was a late-spring scorcher, heralding a hot summer. The iron roof creaked and groaned as it expanded in the sun, the corrugated sides absorbing the heat and releasing it inside.

  The sinking sun streamed through the open roller doors and made the space even hotter. But the doors had to stay open to vent the fumes.

  Claire peeled down her coveralls and tied the sleeves around her waist, working in a baby tee. She worked distracted, trying to remain positive by not dwelling on what she’d done yesterday. Her nervousness had grown as the day progressed and the moment of reckoning approached. She was standing at the roller doors, restirring the paint drum prior to refilling her can, when Nate put down his brush and removed his shirt. Rolling it into a ball, he tossed it out of splatter range and raised his arms in a spine stretch.

  She blinked. A couple of nights ago there’d been tantalizing glimpses of his torso through the towel, but this…

  With an effort, she resumed mixing. Unlike the young marine mechanics who’d flexed for her, Nate’s body reflected long years of Special Forces conditioning, with each muscle clearly defined under skin tanned honey by a Californian sun. He bent to pick up the brush and his torn jeans tightened over a muscular ass and solid thighs.

  His brain calculating completion time, Nate stepped back to assess the finish of his section and decided he was pleased with it. The surface reflected like a mirror. He could even see Claire behind him, slowly stirring paint with a stick.

  Her gaze drifted down his bare back, and up again, lingering on his shoulders, and he froze. Her teeth caught her lower lip and she seemed to shake herself, refocus on the mixing, before her eyes lifted, almost guiltily, for another scan. Nate’s breath caught, his groin tightened at the very feminine assessment. He didn’t know what to do, what to think. How to think.

  If the surface hadn’t been wet, he’d steady himself against the hull. Instead, he concentrated on replenishing his brush. Okay, he’d imagined it. Some trick of the light. Or the fumes getting to him. As he lifted the brush, his gaze returned inexorably to her reflection. He clenched his teeth. Hell, Claire, you can’t go around looking at men like that. You’ll end up… Nate had a sudden vivid mental image of where she’d end up and stared at the paint dripping down the hull because he’d forgotten to stroke the excess out of the bristles.

  Inwardly cursing, he feathered it out. Okay, Claire checking him out had nothing to do with him and everything to do with being celibate for nearly two years. That didn’t explain the sudden hopeful leap of his pulse.

  He had to put a stop to this.

  Nate turned, deliberately catching her in the act, his gaze challenging. Hers dropped, hot color flooded her cheeks. Yeah, that was better. Control. This wasn’t personal. It was just the male-female dynamic, his response a reflex.

  Her lashes lifted, she met his eyes with a “got me” smile that held another element that years of friendship made easy to interpret.

  Shy invitation. It punched Nate in the gut because her response was so intrinsically Claire. She’d always been courageous in her willingness to be vulnerable.

  For a timeless moment he saw possibilities so bright that they blinded him. Saw everything he’d ever wanted, everything he’d believed beyond his reach. “When do you know you’ve found the right woman?” he’d once asked Steve. It had been after his breakup with Bree and he’d been dating women who ticked all the boxes but one. He couldn’t love them.

  And his friend had answered, “When even the tough times with her are better than good times with any other woman.” The truth of that struck Nate now with blinding clarity.

  His fingers tightened on the handle. Where was Claire’s judgment? He was the last man she should be attracted to. He’d run away when she’d needed him, been derelict in his trustee duties, in their friendship. She knew he was relationship trouble. He’d dumped one of her friends, for God’s sake.

  And he’d left her husband to die alone.

  He remembered Steve the last time he saw him, the anguish in his eyes—“Tell Claire I’m sorry.” Guilt jerked him back to reality. “Let me tell you another story about your husband.” It was Steve she had to love, Steve she had to forgive, and Steve who would always stand between them. They both needed a reminder of that.

  There was a pregnant silence. “I’ll just refill my paint pot.”

  When she returned to her end of the boat, he saw the flush of humiliation fading on her cheeks. Ruthlessly Nate closed his mind to her hurt.

  He could live with her thinking him a cold bastard; he couldn’t live with h
er seeing him as worthy.

  * * *

  Claire resumed painting in an agony of embarrassment. She thought she’d seen a bounce-back of attraction when Nate caught her looking. Her encouragement had been instinctive, without considering consequences. Turned out she’d horribly misread the situation.

  What must he think of her? Maybe she was overreacting, maybe Nate hadn’t understood her smile…. No, that was a faint hope. He’d understood and he’d shut her down. Now she experienced shame in front of him, as though she’d denigrated Steve’s memory. Except she hadn’t been thinking of Steve. Oh, God, she was so confused.

  She wanted to talk about this, but what if that only made things worse? No, all she could do was minimize the humiliation. Gaze glued to the hull, she picked up her brush and cleared her throat. “What story do you have for me?” she managed to say casually. Now he wanted to talk about Steve. Another blush heated her cheeks.

  “The one about how he nearly got us killed,” Nate said, and reflexively she glanced over. He was grimly intent on his painting. “It was the tour before last and we’d been driving thirty-six hours to a rendezvous point for pick-up. Steve drove into a ditch. Our vehicle ended up on its side, wheels spinning.”

  Embarrassment turned to shock. “Was anyone hurt?”

  “Scrapes and bruises, Steve had a mild concussion…nothing requiring an air-vac. One of the other vehicles winched us out.” He glanced over, but she wasn’t ready to meet his eyes yet.

  “He’d lost concentration worrying about you dealing with the miscarriage alone. More bad news was the last thing you needed, so we all agreed you’d never find out.”

  Nate paused, clearly waiting for a response, but her throat had tightened.

  “Steve became like a machine after the accident,” he continued. “Didn’t matter what reassurances we gave, he couldn’t get past the fear of endangering our lives. I wonder—” Nate stopped.

  Slowly she turned her head. “You wonder?”

  “If he took the next deployment because he felt he still had restitution to make.”